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离开大队，飞往新的旅程

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Betray?

Does it counted betray?
Does he betray me?

I really
C O N F U S I N G

Why he must perposely do that?
For wad reason?

I didnt like to go back to the class...
Instead of doing those Grad.Dinner things.
I know it was wasting my study time...
But if i were there,wad will happen?
Cry aGain?
No !!!
I not allow myself to do so before Grad.Day...
The last tears in school for 2008
will be at 25th of Oct
faw my dears and beloved friends...
not for others...

Cry... :'( ... ='(

Wad's going on wif me?
Why I mind about it?
The fact for What I had done show me
I like him...
Ops...did I actually like him?
I really confused....

After I called him and not to sms me anymore...
I cried...
Cried Because Of Him??
Again?
The second time d...
Why?

1st time...
was the moment I heard the news when he accident

2nd time...
was this stupid **** thingie happened..

19.10

19.10.2006

19.10.2008

2006...

I hurted eu...

Because I love sum1 else...

2008...

Eu hurted me...

Because of Eu like sum1 else...

Learning

欣宜曰:"受不了。我干吗要做尽好人？有钱拿吗？有奖吗？我真是越来越受不了自己。我都不管受过的伤，只要别人的一声脆弱，我就挺身而出，我都没想过自己的立场，我只希望他们能好好的。但，不要说感谢我了，他们只会得寸进尺，觉得我给再多也是必要的。我才明白，当我努力疗好别人的伤疤，就是我狠狠地在自己身上画上另一个疤痕的时候了。我想问，要求这么多的你们，难道都不会觉得可笑吗？某人说得对，我只是在当一个别人不会珍惜的烂好人。谁知道我什么时候在难过，谁又会理啊？我真是大白痴...曾经有个人告诉过我，如果想要别人珍惜你，那你就必须先学着珍惜你自己。我实在是太不听话了。我只觉得要别人珍惜就要先让他们看见你的疼惜，又是个白痴的想法。我烂透了."
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那里的某些句子让我觉得很熟悉，似乎曾经在我的脑海里飘浮了好几天！
最后的决定是
告诉自己不好在笨下去了。。。
告诉自己够了！够了！

问问自己到底要笨到几时？
问问自己是不是觉得没关系？！

提醒自己已经一次一次的找架吵
提醒自己就算哭到怎样也是于事无补


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=[ Gave Up =(

We where friends
We always talked
Goofing around
Talking nonstop
Nothing mattered
It was just them and me

But things change
They changed
Or
I changed
Who knows???
Nothing was the same
Were memories became lame
While I stayed the same
I stayed and waited for them
I wanted so dearly to talk to them
But it seems they never bothered
Not even a little

I miss who them use to be
But they'll never be the same.
I didnt know that I touched their heart once
But they where to scared to let me in
I wish they could see how much they or I mean
But they'll never see

I'm waiting for the day
When they come running back
Wanting me back
They'll see soon enough
On everything they gave up
Or
On everything I gave up
Who knows???

I Stand Alone

I stand alone,

I stand alone on this path to no where
Looking every which way for help
People see me for something i,m not
When I ask them for directions
They don't understand
So they turn their backs and walk away
I try to fallow them but can't catch up
So I then give up ,
And all hope is lost
I sit empty minded for as long as I can
And soon I can't take it anymore
I feel as though I don't belong
And I constantly think about if dying would be best

But.....
Who can tell me when only will that happen which mentioned below??
In that very same moment I change my mind
The figure came up and held out it's hand
Telling me it cares and that i'm not alone

Questions around my brain...HELP !

Much and Many Question turn over around me since last saturday,
When will it stop???
Today?
Tomorrow?
The day after tomorrow?
Any Day In August?

1st...Education
As a going to finish secondary level's student,rather saying SPM better sae trial.SPM's trial are coming soon juz left more o less about 2 weeks
AND YET .,.,.,.,.,.,
Now already August,stil left about 98 days to reach SPM d...but i still havent touch any chapter of my book even a page also dont have...
How??
What Can I Do?

2nd...Full of Homework
Every day seem like dont have any homework in school but everyday I will think dat I stil owe many homework didnt do...
but I couldnt able to remember back...
Am I getting older and older?

3rd...Is he misunderstand something?

4th...Y they invited both of us?

5th...

6th...

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Actually am I thinking too much d?

Faith,Reliance,Credence,Dependence on?

I never dreamed of the most unbelievable that could impossibly ever happen.
I don't believe.
I don't believe.
I don't believe.

hurt
so painful
depressed

这种感觉...很熟悉但有点陌生....
是那种感觉... 很难受...很痛苦的....
非墨笔，文字能形容的...也非口头就能明白的....

朋友到处都是，好朋友却是难寻。

一生中直盼望拥有那种完美无瑕的友情也许再也不可能...
也许，有磨练的友情才能有更坚固的友情之船儿；
也许，这是个必定路过的阶段；
也许，有些瑕疵才能衬托出友情的完美。

信任....
坦白....
好朋友....
你们都往哪里去了啊？
怎么渐渐消失了？
谁能告诉我？？

Brain being mad`moody`

Haix....Haiz....
i dont know what's going on this weeks....
especially today and yesterdae
stuff which are happening btw my friends,my family,HIM,myself..
everything even everyone
like so annoying,so gloomy...
arguments,misunderstandings,punishment..
shitty homework and result..blah blah..many more
and one thing i realised..

U reali made me mad from Mondae...

wad shud i do?

I'd giv up but not meant I had put down nia

Am I so?

Am I a problem maker?
Am I a meddlesome?
Am I being hated?
Am I not gud enuf?
Am I not a gud secret keeper?

All these question came out from my mind...
It doesnt works properly bcoz being of all these matter...
Why I stil have all these thingx?

Losing A Piece Of My Soul

I came to you the hour I was in pain
Looking for answers, I cried to you in vain.

I shared the many skeletons hiding in my heart,
I knew then you'd be my friend,
I knew it from the start.

Troubles ran like rivers, flowing through my life,
You picked the pieces up and help me through my strife.

When home wasn't home to me no more,
You opened up your heart,
and opened up the door.

We cried into night until the early morn.
We solaced each other's pain and shared our many thorns.

As time flew, the air grew thick,
I saw our friendship fading, and my heart grew sick.

The day had arrived,
When it was time to say goodbye.

Now I sit alone,
reminiscing the past I'd blown.